We all struggle. Simple as that. Whether it’s with anxiety, depression, self-doubt, relationships, or even financially, we’ve all been there at some point in our lives.
I’m currently at that point.
In my teens, I used to struggle hard with depression and anxiety. And I know I am not alone when I say that. With changing hormones, drama, peer pressure, coming-of-age, I would never want to relive my high school years.
These feelings stayed with me while I went away to college, and actually intensified. Of course, I know my habits and behaviors played a huge role in how I was feeling mentally.
When I moved to Florida, and really grounded myself, these feelings of depression and anxiety faded significantly.
And once I met Scottie, I could barely remember what those feelings were.
But then I became a mother. I became responsible for taking care of a life other than my own. A very precious one, too.
I began to worry, to overthink, over analyze, and my anxiety crept back into my life.
It was different than how I remembered it. I felt the effects of my anxiety more physically. Heart racing. Stomach turning, knotting. Sharp breathing. Aches and pains.
As unpleasant as it is, I feel it is almost inevitable to not feel a sense of anxiety when you become a mother. Your entire world changes. The decisions you make not only affect yourself, but your children as well.
Although we can’t control these feelings of anxiety, we can accept them for what they are. Not everyone understands, and some people will struggle more than others, but that’s okay. What matters is how we deal with these feelings, and how we make our lives better by managing them rather than succumbing to them.