I always knew I would breastfeed my babies, and of course, was planning on breastfeeding Myla from the moment she was born. When I was pregnant, and would think about nursing, I could never imagine what it would be like to have a baby drink milk from my breasts.
Within an hour of Myla entering this world, she latched onto my breast so perfectly, and I nursed her for the very first time. It was such a natural experience, because us, as mommas, are made to feed our babies.
I understand that not every woman has the opportunity to breastfeed, for reasons I am very fortunate not to endure. With that being said, all that truly matters is that babies are fed, even if they are fed from bottles. I don’t believe there is a right or wrong way. Us mommas do whatever we need to do, that’s in the best interest for our babies.
It’s been almost 4 months since the first time I breastfed, and I absolutely adore every moment of it. Getting to this point, though, was extremely hard. The first two weeks of nursing Myla were so painful, I dreaded every time she would latch on. Not to be dramatic, but it literally felt like my nipples were being sawed off each time I fed her. I don’t want to discourage any mommas out there who are planning on breastfeeding their babies, and believe me when I say it does get better. Breastfeeding is not easy, and the pain is all part of the experience. It took two full weeks of excruciating pain before my nipples toughened up, and got used to Myla nursing. Once this happened, nursing her was pure bliss.
I love everything about it. I love the way I hold her so close to me. I love the way we bond each time she nurses. I love the way she looks at me, and stares into my eyes. I love the way she falls asleep, so full and content, as if she’s milk drunk. I love the way she cries for me when she’s hungry, and I love being able to take those cries away instantly. I love it all.
It still amazes me when I think about it… Our bodies are truly incredible. Us woman are able to feed and grow a life inside our bodies, and then continue to feed and grow this life even after we give birth to them. We produce this “liquid gold” that contains everything our babies need to flourish.
Creating a life is so beautiful. It’s mind-blowing. It’s extraordinary. It’s everything I needed to encounter in life, and more. I cannot wait to create and grow a life over again.