Random Midnight Thoughts

This post is going to be kind of “out there.” I just feel like I have so many thoughts going through my head these days. Mostly, they are about the future. I’m constantly thinking about what I want my life to become. Don’t get me wrong, being a mother was seriously at the top of my list, and I’m so fortunate that I’m able to check that box off. I’m already thinking about baby number 2, and 3, and 4… of course, not until way in the future. I love being a mama. But I also want more for myself too.

I think what’s really been getting me thinking is my academics. I’m currently still in school, and I’m so close to graduating with my Associates in Business. I have two more tough classes to hurdle through, and then I’m done. I feel like I’ve been working towards this degree FOREVER. And in truth, I kind of have.

I graduated high school in 2014, and went right to the University of New Hampshire the same year. Although, my time there was a complete waste, but that’s a story for another blog post. When I moved to Florida a year later, I took a semester off to get myself settled in before I decided to start college classes again in 2016. I’ve been working towards my Associates ever since, but I’m seriously taking me sweet damn time. Life gets in the way sometimes. Whether it’s work, or having a baby, it’s hard to put your entire focus on school 100% of the time.

I am honestly very satisfied with how slow I am taking my courses, because it enables me to learn and do well. Now, I don’t want to be a hypocrite, and say I succeed in all my classes. Hell, most of the time I just want to rush through them and receive the credits. But lately, I’ve been feeling extremely inspired.

I’m not sure if it’s because I started this blog, or because I’m reading more, or even because I’m actually studying about aspects of business that I am genuinely curious about and enjoy learning. All I know is, I’m feeling really good.

Within the next couple months, our world is about to change completely. Scottie, Myla, and I are leaving our home here in Florida and making the move to Indiana, where we can be closer to Scottie’s family, and raise our children in a better environment. I’m very excited and eager to move, but I am also a bit timid, because I know this will be a huge change for me.

Life is all about growing, and that’s exactly what I aim to do. There is so much I want to accomplish, and learn, and experience. I want to be the best mother I can be, while also achieving success from a business standpoint.

I know I need to set attainable goals for myself, but I never really write them down. So, here it goes:

In 2019, I want to graduate college with my Associates of Business. I also want to read as many books as I possibly can, considering I have a baby that needs my full attention. I want to continue writing, even if they are just random posts. For me, typing on this computer is like writing in a journal. The journal being, my blog. I have really been enjoying it, and I want my blog to become a place of comfort, not only for myself, but for other readers out there, who I can share my stories with.

I’m going to end this rambled thoughts post here. I had a nagging feeling, like I really needed to just write about these things to get them off my chest. I guess this is why people take such a liking to journaling their thoughts.

Goodnight everyone, Chantelle

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